Blighted Bellies n Pelvic Dreams

My journey to having a baby as a 38 yo with undetected Pelvic Inflammation Disease

No steroids, just gestational diabetes now…..

Sorry but f@ck this sh!t!! Why cant i just be pregnant? not pregnant with…….something!!!!

Rd 1 ivf -sperm liked my girls too much n over fertilised.

rd 2 icsi – but too much progesterone so transfer cancelled, only to successfully implant fet the next month.

progerstone headache for 13 wks, morning sickness till 20wks plus….some foods still give indigestion.

low lying placenta all along and at 24 wks booked in for steroids.

go for steroids and they are cancelled due to diabetes and they muck up yr sugar levels for up to 2 wks.

one hour visit to diabetes dietician, load up with testers, food lists n instructions, off to chemist to buy other bits n medication to help.

isnt it hard enough that i had to suffer thru ivf medications, headaches n constipation.

isnt it hard enough that i had to cancel all forms of my gym exercise while ivf meds made me sick then placenta previa could move my placenta at any time.

isnt it hard enough that i have had to mentally prepare myself for steroid shots.

now i have fkn gestational diabetes!.

my only way of thinking is this bubba is giving me a taste of ALL pregnancy symptoms because we keep saying its going to be the only one.

frustrated-placenta previa means no exercise but GD states 1/2 hr moderate exercise each day!

have put on 6kgs max since start of ivf…..and repeatedly told how small my bump is for 26 weeks But concerned about baby being too big (measuring 50th percentile in weight)

Wheres the middle ground? 

F@ck this sh!t!!!!!!!!!!

 

Advertisements
5 Comments »

The meltdown had to happen sometime.

It was bound to happen at some stage I guess. I have been told all along I have a low-lying placenta…with the good chance it will move.

Nope, nada, hasn’t happened! Placenta Previa it is!

Is this a worry?

When your gym buddy/local DR tells you – oh yeah, no gym for you, lets aim to get to 28 weeks in one piece first, then yep its a worry!

Went to ob/gyno fellow, Dr V, says it is still Stage 2….lying just just JUST beside or across my cervix. When your ob is happy to discuss emergency plans about possibilities (ambulance, fly out, don’t call local aged care they’re useless), its a worry!

Its not the C-section I am worried about.

Its being at work and bleeding starting. Its the 1/2 hour drive from any hospital.

1 1/2 hours from nearest biggish hospital.

2 1/2 hours from nearest Capital city.

Its bleeding profusely in front of a group of 9 and 10 year olds, 2 of which have parents expecting and 1 has a sister expecting!

And from Dr V and Dr Google, it is something that needs to be considered.

So today I am going to visit the office ladies at work (am on school hols 🙂 ) and give them my partner’s phone number, direct line at work.

I am going to tell them its VERY important and what I will do if something unforeseen happens! Hoping that one won’t laugh (nervous laugh but still off putting).

I am going to make sure I carry my mobile phone EVERYWHERE at school next term.

I am going to be prepared!

So the meltdown?

I had to convince my stepdaughter (18yo) to come to ob appointment with me, as Dr V (over 1 hour away by the way) discussed last time the possible need for steroids to strengthen Ranga baby’s lungs just in case. I didn’t know what to expect. I didn’t know if it would be given then and there. I didn’t know if I could drive after. I didn’t tell her that tho. Just play along and be happy happy!

At the appointment, the bookings were made for the steroid shots to be given next Thurs and Fri-24 hours apart. All good! I can handle that, or so I thought!

Cooking tea that night, I was so sore from sanding a little bookshelf that I was having trouble cutting corn cobs in half. After being an amateur (read that as social!) gym junky, having sore arms is common but not from bloody sanding a 2ft tall bookshelf! Weak as piss!

The dogs (4 of them when step daughter visits!) were under my feet, in the way (I have already burnt myself on a roast the week before from not thinking straight!) and they were kicked out of the kitchen. BUT I didn’t realise the lounge door had been shut for this to occur. So, when I was frustratingly cutting the corn, calling for help and blubbing like a baby, I just had no energy. I gave in. I cried. I got the corn half cut and couldn’t do any more. I grabbed a BIG knife (blunt as!), jammed in the same cut I had started and SMACKED that corn onto the table until it snapped in half. SMACKA!

Corn was everywhere! Smashed corn is hard to clean up!

It was all over the table, partner’s work jacket hanging on opposite chair.

The fridge about 4 foot away, and the pantry beside it!

My folder of baby info and dvd case of 3D pics!

Everywhere!

Ranga came in and I was blubbing and cooking and cleaning up-he never saw even half the mess!

He cuddled me and offered to take over cooking tea, to go and have a shower but I powered through. A shower/break meant I would have kept blubbing longer!

He was so sweet!

Even nicer, the next day he texted me to tell me he has those 2 days off work to take me for the shots! AHHHH! He has to fight to use RDO/accured hours, has no sick leave left, his base pay is pathetic (about 1/2) and he loses his daily bonus every day he doesn’t work. But he moved mountains, saw the boss higher up and did it without me knowing. What a sweetie!

Meltdowns suck, but it got everything out a little bit more and made me realise that I don’t have to be wonderwoman all the time!

 

 

2 Comments »

Small bump apparently…

I must have a very small bump, even at 24 1/2 weeks.

The lady in the baby shop asked the other day if the purchase was for me.

The tyre salesman (family friend) asked why I needed to sort my tyre problem out….why was I taking leave?

At a friend’s hen party the other night, many people didn’t recognise I was pregnant, just had a good feed of Chinese!

BUT…at my partner’s work party the other night, the Ranga baby was loved and patted and rubbed beyond belief! Am amazed my chiffon top hasn’t got boobles from being rubbed! One chicky (tad drunk mind you!) kicked my foot by mistake and grabbed my tummy and apologised to it, very close to it!

I may have a small bump, but I am wearing it all on my arse!!! Oh and boobs according to my partner!

Chocolate and potatoes do that to you apparently! Lol!

1 Comment »

20weeks pic

20weeks pic

Sorry this didnt attach before…… 🙂

Leave a comment »

20 weeks then 23 weeks

20 weeks then 23 weeks

Here is our lil Ranga baby at 20 weeks (very dodgy male ultrasound guy did it but didnt want to!) compared to 23 weeks (professional 3d/4d clinic!) am totally amazed at the changes esp the filling out of the bubba! Have another 87 -23 wk shots but this is the best! We’re gonna have a baby!!!!!!!

4 Comments »

Fallen off the back of a truck….

My friend called today and asked me to stop by her work on the way home. Her family own a distribution warehouse and she said she had stuff to school.

Then she told me to bring my car into the warehouse and she loaded it up with some written off goodies….for our bubba!

imageimage

The jumping frame just has a damaged box. Everything else is perfectly wrapped. There is:
2 long sleeved body suits size 000
2 singlet body suits size 000
Baby record book
2 maternity singlets/camis
Moses straw bassinet
3x 8 tub baby food storers
5 pks of sanitary liners
2 belly belts
10 pk bibs
And a box of toothbrushes (Wtf??!!)

Nice start for our lil beetle. 🙂

2 Comments »

OMG! Stunned!!!!!!!

Just found on facebook that my best friend from high school passed away yesterday. 😦

40 yrs and 9mths of fighting spina bifida and recently tumorous leg cancers took another angel from this earth.

My message for you all-LIVE and LOVE the life you have xo 40 is just too young…….

1 Comment »

Testing time tomorrow…..

Have had the whole weekend to myself and spend lots of time on the ipad with dr google, youtube (or i-cried!) and chillaxing. Less tears than last week thank goodness.

Unfortunately this has now given me info about my beta hcg test tomorrow. Not too panicked but, you know, am wondering and hoping for a good one.

My poas epidode was very clear and instant which my friend with ivf twins, says is great, but small worry is still there. Self doubt that its not high enough…… High enough to perhaps show if its twins…….

Without that ‘stick’ of evidence, i wouldn’t know i was pregnant!

Still having pinching and tightness in my abdomen- not complaining cause i know it means good stuff is happening.

Bring on my hcg test tomorrow!!!

1 Comment »

OMG pregnancy tag!

As i waited for wordpress to load, i realised that i can now put ‘pregnancy’ as one of my tags!!!!

Holy fkn shit!!!!!

🙂image

2 Comments »

How do I love thee? Let me count the days. <3

Ok girls….spit it! How long did you wait to pee on that not-so-magical stick? Tell me!

My two week wait looks like this and I want some thoughts on it…..

Thursday-8dp5dt-ranga partner leaves for 10 day fishing trip 🙂
Friday-9dp5dt- work till 4pm
Saturday-10dp5dt- um er nothing!!
Sunday-11dp5dt- should be blood test but not happening because of weekend.
Monday-12dp5dt-blood test then work till 3pm. Have Professional Development till 3-6pm. Dr office closes at 4:30pm.

🙂 So my thoughts are these- doing poas on either Saturday or Sunday because:

1) would hate to get phone call at lunchtime that its negative then return to my classroom of socio-economically deprived students.

2) would hate to be carpooling to the prof.devt and get either bfn or bfp call.

3) if I do it on wkend, can have friend there if I want and deal with whatever the dice of life rolls.

4) if I do it on wkend, is Saturday 10dp5dt too early????

PLEASE tell me your thoughts.

7 Comments »