Blighted Bellies n Pelvic Dreams

My journey to having a baby as a 38 yo with undetected Pelvic Inflammation Disease

The fun IVF bits they don’t tell you!!

I thought I was pretty well read on all things IVF but as we go along the path to creating a family, you are let into more and more secrets. Secrets that, although embarrassing, gross and uncomfortable, will hopefully result in morning sickness which in turn makes you feel gross, horrible and uncomfortable. Please remember tho that everyone’s experiences and side effects are different.

1. Crinone is a vaginal cream that is inserted internally 2 times a day. It also dribbles out all day, and may continue to be present at the most unwelcome times, like, 2 weeks later during intercourse or during an internal scan!

2. Crinone needs to be inserted for 8-10 WEEKS!!! Yes, weeks! 2 times a day!

3. Sore boobs, bloating and twinges happen but sh!t doesn’t!!!!bless the Lord for Metamucil!

4. Bruises are tough scars and sometimes the only reminder you have, that you did inject that morning as days blur into one.

5. Injections hurt. Yep, one of my needles are thicker and I know it! Nearly brings tears every time.

6. Start buying shares in the Libra sanitary protection company- you want it, i have got it!

7. And buy shares in the specialist or hospital carpark too…….probably cheaper than the massive fees they charge!

8. No questions are off limits to the ivf nurses. I want the best result, they want to help me get the best result so just ask (find this is best over the phone- faceless works best for me!)

9. Every cycle may not be the same. Sore boobs now but still waiting for the bloated tummy that was very evident last cycle.

10. Its okay to “shoot up” in the car or wherever you may be. Weird as hell but anyway…..

11. Nausea happens and happens and happens!!! Sitting is worse tho so try and stay mentally busy if having to sit for long time. My 2 hour drive to the gyno is murder if i am a passenger and not driving.

12. Chocolate is working really well for me too…..and lots of it! What’s your vice? 🙂

13. Tired! I could go to bed at 8pm, sleep till 6am and have a nanny nap by 10am. Unfortunately, my workplace is not that kind!

14. Remembering your ultimate goal as you wake with cramps, bloating and all the other joys can be difficult….. It will be worth it!

15. Remember your story is different to everyone else (learnt this one the hard way!) Go with the flow, follow the instructions and your future will follow its designated path.

And lastly…….

16. Kisses on the head, thoughtful gestures and just being nice will get you everywhere with your partner. Don’t pump it more than u need to, they’re worried, stressed and as confused as you are and one day you may really really need them and they will be over it all xo Bless my ranga-mate xo


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10 years ago today….

10 years ago today my whole world fell apart…in hindsight it was for the better. I handed over the keys of my first house in a forced divorce sale, lost my 3 dogs when my husband refused to take them to my parents (RIP Nash, Belle and Spike) and my husband left for certain after 5 months of indecision. Dad had his first replacements and I moved into my parents sleepout with a basket of clothes. What a day it was!!! BUT all these events have led up to me meeting my ranga-partner, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I will never reach such a low spot again, but also know it will never happen with my ranga-partner by my side. 🙂

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Wasn’t too good till I met the doc

Went for my follow up checkup. If the bloomin lil ranga sperm had stayed put, then it would have been a great visit but, they hadn’t. So, off to face the doctor by myself. Not too keen………

Great turnaround then when the doc stated on the way into his room that he was pissed at the results. Why hadn’t they stuck longer? The embryos were perfect, beyond perfect! Bloody good looking actually!!! He said that pretty much, then said in the next breath that we will get it next time!!!!

Yes! Yes! Yes!!!

We recapped my case, reviewed the stats and data, checked out my embryo report card, egg count, double yolker problem (very keen genes to chase girls!) and ranga partner’s sperm roll call!

Feeling MUCH better!!!!!

Bring on round 2 🙂

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The answer is……..

Well, its been a few days since last post. Had so many ideas for new post and just as many excuses for not following thru….
1. Don’t want to jinx it.
2. Too tired.
3. Too sore.
4. Too bloated.
5. Feeling too damn good.
5. Don’t want to jinx it.
And so goes the vicious circle……

Well, I felt good because it was good!

Decided to do home test at 4am on the day of the blood test, just before my ranga partner goes to work, so we could share results together.

Hmmmmmm, no results 😦 nothing to see so was hanging for the official blood test. Came thru and my hcg was 10. Not good but told to follow thru on the next test 2 days later in case it was a late bloomer. Nope again, only dropped to 6 when was waiting for zero or a negative.

Ok then, so I WAS pregnant at some stage. Those pains were real! The tender boobs were genuine not under the influence of drugs. A small consolation but hey, after 12 years wait, I will take whatever I can get.

Next time……:-)

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THE transplant, aka the planting!!!!

Funny how it all happened actually. In some stages it felt like a bad Benny Hill movie but more about that as we go.

We were booked in for 9:15am with a 10am delivery time so decided to deliver some furniture to the step-daughter’s new first-time-moved-out flat on the way. This meant leaving at 5am! I can handle 5:something but not getting up at 4:something.

The furniture was delivered, more stuff packed to bring home, then off into the city.

I was dropped out the front, abused by the cafe owner for using her cafe as an entry to the clinic (I didn’t see the wkend entrance next her cafe till after oops!), walked inside and starting drinking, drinking and drinking as I had been directed!

Drinking water for ultrasounds is usually ok but my abdomen had been so sore, tender, empty but full from the EPU (egg pick up) that the water was a slow agony.

We were called in for our brief with embryologist who, ahhhhhh….gave us our own first pics of our freckly-ranga-blastocysts taken 2 hours previously. THE KIDS were real, in our hands. Our lil union in print!! Wanted to tear up truthfully………big breaths! Treasure!!!!

Sent back out to drink, met the girls from the recovery room from EPU time and drank more.

In the room, it was so small that we were pushing past each other as my partner was as nervous as I was. He was in charge of the ultrasound and held it hard, very hard, on my swollen, full, tender belly after the magic planting spot was found by the nurse.

Imagine this. Behind a small curtain, legs up, at eye height for the nurse, lit up inside and out, and theres a knock on the door.

It opens from the outside.

“I have a delivery. I need you to sign here.”

A delivery, on a Saturday!!! My ranga reckons it was the stork just stopping by!!!!! Lol!

Back to the matter at hand, push again on that ultrasound, then the nurse drops…..something! Not the blastocysts….phew!!

In for another look and she says, “Oooooooo!” What?????? “You have an extremely small cervical opening and we will need to use a stiffener.”

Now, I had told everyone, asked everyone, at every appointment, as my regular GP tried to insert a mireena (iud?) years ago with agonizing, painful, unsuccessful results. Everyone I had told said they did it all the time and my GP was unexperienced and thats why he had problems.

Wrong answer!! I have an extremely small cervical opening, and theres 2 walls to it.

Press hard on the ultrasound, pop thru one wall of the cervix, get the kids, pop thru the other wall, grab hard on the man’s shirt and breathe thru gritted teeth!

Then the magic words…..”DONE!”

Off the table, get dressed and stand there chatting to the nurse and embryologist about next steps…….unofficially pregnant!

Next, we hope they stick, head to a toilet stop and to a pub for lunch, avoiding potholes, sharp corners and speed bumps! (Pretty sure they can’t fall out! Lol!!)

Fingers crossed! X

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